This is another draft I found in my control panel. It dates back to 2007, right around where I was working hard at learning Greek, so you will see all those Greek words. Some of it I have mentioned in other posts, but being redundant has never bothered me a bit. You will also notice that back then I was already a Calvinist and I didn't know it.
I apologize for the long post but it really is a bunch of posts compiled together in a single file, this was before I ever started writing the blog on Blogger.com; the reason I am posting this is because these were what I called back then "thoughts of the blessed' and there are some very cool thoughts in here, if I may say so. Of course you don't have to read but I appreciate it if you do, I am also doing it for the sake of preserving them for the future, I hope you get something cool out of this mess:
I am not a theologian or a teacher, just a thinker. Not everything I think is true or false, it just is, some thoughts of mine are based on truth, some are based on fiction, some are full of light and some are just dark and whoever reads can agree or disagree at any time. If you don't like what you read here, it's ok, you don't have to like it, if you don't agree, it's ok too, you don't have to agree, but know this: absolute truth can only be found in God. Apart from God there is only relative truth, darkness and confusion.
1. I have always found thinking to be an almost spiritual activity; it was not until I read the Bible ( or the Book, the message, the word of God, the sword of the spirit, etc) through phos, light, that I discovered that for me, a human, thinking is a privilege; and thinking the right way is a duty of the highest order.
So I was thinking, when I was six, and pondered why is my head located between my shoulders and at the very top of my body. Location, location. It is clear to me now.
I don't think that animals think, I think only humans think, animals and man are thought to possess that which is basic to the animal kingdom: psuche, soul, but humans are the only ones that possess pneuma, spirit; to really be able to think in the thinking sense I need pneuma since without it I cannot comprehend my own thoughts, I have no reasoning power without pneuma; some animals show signs of having the ability to reason since they can learn certain things, but is only a sign, that is why I cannot have a conversation with a dog, I can teach a dog to sit on demand through rewards, but it will not reason "oh I see, if I sit down I will get a cookie, but what if I'm not hungry? can I save the cookie for later?". Pneuma without phos is always in the dark, the result of the interaction of divine phos and pneuma has resulted ,in my case, in pisteou: faith, mental persuasion, the abundant life.
For a long time I was part of the new age way of thinking; specifically metaphysics.
In metaphysics the universe is thought of as an effect of thought; according to the dictionary, back in the 4th century BC, Aristotle wrote a treatise of the theological doctrine of causation (which I haven't read) showing by his actions that the school of thought of cause and effect was already in existence.
In contrast, Saul of Tarsus was a great expositor of divine logic, as in the concept that the wisdom of men is foolishness with God, and that not many wise, mighty and noble men are called, but the foolish and weak things of the world, the kosmos, have been chosen to confound the wise and mighty.
I consider that faith operates through thought, there is faith and then there is faith, the evidence of things not seen. Thoughts that I dwell upon always cause some kind of feeling, proving that the thought was the cause or the cause was the thought and the effect was the feeling or the feeling was the effect. Is syntaxis important? Should I say syntax? Yes, maybe.
Science as a method, cannot realize how thought operates, science only knows that information is transmitted via chemicals and electrical signals in the physical reality, in the gray matter, the rest is a faith issue. Enter quantum physics and it's theories. It is easier to believe in quantum physics because there is no accountability to the atom on my part.
But in a sense is true, my thoughts, the ones that I dwell upon, which are always pictures, will manifest themselves in the physical reality through feelings and actions. I can make myself laugh or cry just by thinking; these thoughts cause feelings, and these feelings cause my actions, eventually.
Saint Paul commanded to place my thinking life where Christ is, to think of whatever is pure, lovely and praise worthy, to be transformed by the renewing of my mind, to bring into captivity every thought into the obedience of Christ, notice it says the obedience of Christ, not of Jesus (of course Jesus is the Christ, but my point is how Paul was directed to write "the obedience of Christ", I think is because Jesus Christ is the only person who has actually been obedient one hundred percent; I might argue with myself that Jesus was all powerful and therefore he could be totally obedient, but I can defeat my own argument by thinking also that Jesus was completely human, so I have no excuse when I disobey in thinking what is wrong, am I the only one thinking about this?). David said "bless the Lord oh my soul (nephesh, psuche) and all that is within me (what is within me?), bless his holy name", you can probably do an hour bible study just on that statement. Read it for yourself, is all there.
Well, I'm only thinking, not trying to mislead anybody, neither trying to be understood, and in all this thinking vanity is found.
2. A great amount of my time is used thinking, as if I had nothing better to do. Indeed all issues of life stream out of the heart, where thinking takes place. The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked; who can know it? See the book of Jeremiah for the answer to that question.
So if I'm to trust in YHWH with all of my heart and lean not on my own understanding, I have to do it without thinking, that's when problems start, when I start thinking. The heart is deceitful and I'm supposed to apply all of it when trusting, therefore the heart has to be forced to be impartial, but the heart cannot be impartial without thinking, so I find that is impossible to stop thinking and so the heart must be submitted through thinking. I don't know what I'm thinking, it is all crap.
Even when I am sleeping there is some kind of cerebral activity taking place, of course this is according to science, which in a sense doesn't mean there is thinking taking place when I'm sleeping, but dreaming instead. A mystery. There is the capability of dreaming when I'm sleeping, and thinking when I'm waking, can I think when I dream or have a dream about me thinking?
This is the constant battle between the spirit and the flesh. A matter of choice, as in not making a choice is choosing. I need wisdom to make the choice, the knowledge of how to regulate my relationship to YHWH, we all lack wisdom at one point in time, thinking usually derails my good intentions unless is regulated by wisdom.
Thinking is everything in my world because my world is perceived through my thinking, I want to think like YHWH thinks and submit the heart to him alone, I need to know who he is, his character, his way of doing things. I think I know, but the more I know, the more I know that I don't know. Who can know the magnitude (maybe not the correct word) of his holiness and the majesty of his love? I think I know, but I can only imagine because my brain is too small.
There is only one person who knows everything, because he is everything there is to know; his thoughts are pure and his thoughts towards me are more than can be numbered. He is the only person I know that can think about everybody at the same time and still keep focus, He doesn't get distracted or let his thoughts run wild, He doesn't drive himself crazy thinking about the past or what the future holds because He lives outside of time, or about what am I going to think of him; His heart is not deceitful, there is nothing wicked in him, in Him there is no darkness at all, He is light and love, his name is Jesus.
3. The mind will not stop, thoughts will not stop being created, images will constantly flow through the gauze of my mind; like a silent black and white movie that has no beginning and no end. Even when I practiced meditation in my tree hugging days, I could never put my mind in a blank; there was always something there being projected on the screen.
I don't remember what was before I was born, it's all dark. From the moment of my creation until I was about 3 years old, everything is dark; I start to remember from that age on because the world had been pounded into me by my mom and dad and brothers, their touch and their words, and the sounds of the world around me; by the transmission of the kosmos through my senses, by the cry of pigs being slaughtered and chirping chicken laying eggs.
There are pictures in my mind from that era, dimly floating through my memory; changing my little brother's diaper, being stung by a bee, riding my tricycle, stealing the hen's baby, hearing my grandpa's voice: "don't cry son", I don't remember why was I crying, but I couldn't stop, I could also hear myself crying, I stopped when I heard his voice, mainly because I got scared; he had a very deep voice, I thought it was God speaking.
I remember I met Jesus when I was about six; he loved me then as much as he does now, as much as he will ever do, the only physical image I had of him was Padre Solis, an old Salesian priest in my school, I could feel God in this old man, even though I was only a little boy; he gave me a pocket version of the Gospel of John, and I carried it in my backpack and I would read it. I believed everything John said, Jesus was more real then than now, I had faith that was not tainted by guile or deceit. And then I was in darkness until I was thirty years old. Yes, twenty four years of darkness seem like a bad dream, I don't remember many of those years, for some reason the files are corrupted and are not coming up to RAM.
One day I woke up, my eyes finally opened all the way and I beheld his glory, reflected by the sun, it was better than life, is not about me anymore, I thirst for the light of righteousness, I hunger for the emancipation of this flesh and mind into his complete holiness and freedom. Is coming. Someday it will appear, just like the sun rising in the morning, as sure as that.
It is a burden to take the world out of me, but the burden is light, not heavy that is; the yoke is easy. I have been given everything that pertains to life and godliness, all the phos I need is already there, inside of me, all I need to do is get out of the way, transform my heart by the renewing of my mind. Transform my paradigm, shift it by taking all that I am and surrender to the only reality that requires faith to be real, surrendered, taken to freedom through thinking and by grace through faith.
So here I am thinking again, there is no end to it, at least not in sight or in thought.
My affections are divided, I long to be free and at the same time I desire to see my girls and grand children grow up to be what YHWH designed them to be; it's a battle. It's also 3 in the morning, I need to stop thinking.
4. Words spoken without thinking are dangerous, thoughts that are left to run wild are dangerous. If I am to exercise self control, it has to start by controlling the thoughts in my mind; that is true alchemy, that indeed is being transformed by the renewing of my mind.
True self-control is found in the correct control of the thinking life, Jesus said that is not what defiles a man what goes into a man, but what comes out of the man; because what comes out of a man proceeds from the heart, which is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked.
It is not I who says good things, it is not me who thinks right and pure thoughts, or at least is not my heart, it has to be that part of me that has been created in the image of him who fills all in all, because is in him that I live and move and have my being. So the truth makes one free.
I watched rocky balboa today, in one scene rocky said to his son: "is not about how hard you can hit but about how hard you get hit and keep on going", I thought that was pretty good, that is what faith is all about, isn't it? He finally let out the things in the basement during the last round of his life. I was surprised to not hear a cuz word in this movie, and to not see an x rated scene or an allusion to sexuality. Very commendable in that respect, because it was nice to keep my mind clean, but I was disappointed to hear the prophet Jeremiah being misquoted, which defeated the purpose of the probable lofty intentions of sly the man. If that makes any sense at all.
How grateful am I for freedom of speech, and freedom of thought. I make judgments with my heart, the part that is deceitful, and one more day has passed away, maybe this was the last round of my life, I don't think that I fought today as if it was the last round of my life, if there is another round, I will confirm it tomorrow when I wake up, if I wake up.
5. UFOs unexplained, a paradox. When I lived in Guadalajara, Mexico, I saw this big blue ball of light flying through the sky at night, right after that, I saw an airplane flying in the same path, it was a lot smaller and it's lights blinked, this blue light was not an airplane, and no, I wasn't high on anything; my ex-wife didn't believe me, my oldest daughter believed me because she was about two years old.
Many other times I saw lights in the sky that moved in sharp angles, they looked like stars but brighter and were fast. The light would move two inches from my perspective, yeah relativity indeed, and then changed direction upward and then to the right and so forth, until it took off at an incredible speed, just like a shooting star. In fact I just had a dream in which I saw these fast moving lights again, what does it mean, if it means anything at all? Why am I seeing these lights in the sky in my dream?
I never really told this to anyone, except, later on, to a few people. I was scared, the unknown is always kind of freaky, mainly when it is dark sided. It turned out that one of my friends saw these lights also. I am not afraid anymore, I became a Christian and I never saw these lights anymore (except in my dream). The knowledge of the truth set me free.
When I was a practicing meta-physician I used to see a beam of light shooting from the top of people's heads, it was weird, sometimes the walls looked like they were pulsating, kind of vibrating, I was drawn toward the supernatural since I was a child, I didn't have normal thoughts, at least not for a child. But again, I used to hug trees when I ate peyote.
Today, I don't have normal thoughts, I am constantly struggling to make them my slaves and conform them to my will, the problem is that sometimes, most of the time I should say, my will is twisted, the heart is deceitful above all things indeed; right out of area 51.
6. DO I know YHWH? I think I do. Part of my knowing is actually based on experience, which is subjective, and part of it is based on what he has chosen to reveal to me, which is also part of my experience but requires faith up to a certain point, I say this because after faith becomes real, then YHWH starts revealing himself in doing things that he will not do without me praying for them.
I have read the book many times, and when I say book it means the bible, which means book, and every time I do I find something new. Only the bible is living and powerful and sharper than a two-edged sword, it indeed pierces down into the division of soul and spirit and of marrow and bone, deep, way deep; and it is a discerner of the thoughts and the intents of the heart.
When I put my thoughts right next to it, it just shows me that His thoughts are not my thoughts; I have to make his thoughts my thoughts, how can I live any other way? How can I know YHWH any other way?
I read there that he will never leave me nor forsake me, and then my experience has confirmed that. I read that he loves me with an everlasting love, my beating heart confirms that; I read that he is perfect in every way, my constant falling confirms it. I read that he is faithful and just to forgive me of all my sins and cleanse me from all unrighteousness, my confession settles that. He is more than good.
The thought of lighting up a candle and then putting it in a secret place is ludicrous, is so ridiculous is funny. Why would anybody light up a candle and then hide it? The idea, besides being stupid, is also dangerous, and it doesn't make any sense at all. The smart and common sense thing to do is to put it on a candle stick, that is an original idea to illustrate how my life should be, only Jesus could think of something like that, very clever.
The same as being given a thousand bucks and then bury them in the ground, these kind of ideas are so out of reality that they force me to know how YHWH thinks, and what he wants because Jesus is the express image of his glory, basically the logos.
I think I know YHWH, but only two of my neurons know him, the rest are constantly rebelling, at least the ones that are left, not very many. The rest of my cells are dying in ignorance, I need to be born again.
7. How many times must I be born? Be born twice, die once. That is what the bible says about me, is not like that for everyone of course. What does it really mean? To be born. Jesus said that a seed must die to live, that I cannot understand the things of the kingdom of the spirit unless I am born once more, born of the spirit.
I am a dying seed, the seed of Adam, the seed of Abe; my grandmother was Jewish, she was born is Costa Rica, her dad and mom were German, but she was Jewish. Clara was her name, she married Amado, my grandpa.
He was a trippy guy, a studied guy. He studied astronomy, he studied homeopathy, he studied Latin, and he studied the book, the Reina-Valera version. I found his book in the book shelf, I was probably 4 or 5 and I used to read everything that had letters, the pages were full of notes he made on the margins. He had beautiful writing, it was more penmanship than writing, it was captivating.
That is the reason I was drawn to the bible, his notes. I used to wonder why he wrote all those notes on the margins, and little arrows pointing to certain verses and words, references to other verses, some were underlined with a red pencil. I would guess that he didn't have a concordance so he was working on his own, at one point he was a Rosicrucian or should I say rosacruzian? He was into all that in his searching, I know he was searching, and I am sure he found what he was searching for before he died.
My grandma was very quiet, I wish I had the vision to have spent more time with her, the same applies to my father, to my brothers, to my grandchildren, to my daughters.
I have to be born everyday, everyday I feel like I am being born, like I am giving birth to myself every morning, is a painful reality this world; this dying seed has to be sown into the ground one day, then I will be really awake.
What about you? Yeah, you, the one reading this, do you think you made it this far by coincidence? I don't think so. I said it before, you are here by design, just like me. If you are reading this, it only means one thing to me: your search is over, YHWH is all you and I need.
Some people, millions of them, will never read these words. Some people don't need to read these words because they already know.
I got born the second time by what I thought was choice, actually it was my only choice since nothing else was working on my alcoholism and drug addiction, it was a good thing I believed in reincarnation, it saved me from killing myself, I didn't want to come back to do it all over again after I blew my brains out; that is what I believed: I was stuck in this reincarnation wheel, the only way to get out of it was by being perfect most of the time, so that I would attain a higher level the next time I was born, basically, more good karma than bad karma. My book says that it is appointed for man once to die and then the judgment.
8. Citizenship is a privilege. I became a US citizen in the year two thousand, I sworn an oath with my hand on my chest, looking at the US flag and with the constitution in my other hand, along with fifteen hundred other people. I was born into this country then, I became another number in the system. I became a different kind of citizen back in 1989, I was born into a country with no borders, no democracy and no darkness. I was chosen before the big bang, in a singularity of thought, no one can take that away, I cannot renounce it, I'm stuck with it forever.there is no certificate to prove it but there is a seal inside of me, like a candle that has been lit and that never burns off and can never be snuffed out.
9. NASA is planning on planting a base on the moon; plans are already being executed to start the mission, first there is a satellite, the L-Cross satellite, that is supposed to plot a map of the moon's surface so they can decide which is the ideal place for the lunar base. Of course they are also looking into finding oxygen, not only because is necessary for breathing but because oxygen is also rocket fuel.
Then there is the water issue, since there are no rivers on the moon, the only possible source of water is ice, they think that ice might be found in the moon's south pole, inside a crater that has never seen the light of the sun. Since they cannot get into the crater, they plan to launch a school bus-sized ram into the crater via a rocket, and thus create an immense cloud of dust so that the satellite can scan the dust for oxygen bearing minerals. They have the technology of being able to analyze the soil's components by analyzing the light they reflect. Amazing.
In order to do excavations on the moon, specifically on ice, they are designing a drill bit that can drill at -320F, so they designed a drill bit and went to the arctic to test it. They spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on this, part of that money was mine, I pay taxes.
Another issue is bringing robots to the moon, to do the work. NASA has the robonaut, a cool looking robot with four legs that has this super-intelligent brain and that is supposed to work along the astronauts, maybe even give them a massage when needed. Lockheed Martin is spear heading the project of the robotic helpers.
All this is just the beginning, the satellite will be in orbit, lunar orbit by next year, 2008; in the meantime, and since I'm thinking about satellites, politicians in Mexico are already using a subcutaneous implant, basically a micro chip, so they can be tracked if they are kidnapped. Back in 1989 I listened to a tape by some dude back in New Zealand that was talking about these implants, they basically are designed to fit inside a hypodermic needle, and are self-powered. Motorola was already launching, back then, thirty or more low-orbiting satellites to "improve cellular communications", and they were planning to use these satellites to track the micro-chips, the original plans were to use them on animals, in fact you can now chip your dog so you can find it if he runs away with the tramp, or with the lady, it all depends on your dog's sexual inclination, but they extended the experimentation to humans, and finally, and according to the news (I actually read this on the newspaper a few years back), a whole family, I think their last name was Simpson, yeah, it was the Simpsons, volunteered to have the chips implanted and they, the micro-chips, are finally expanding throughout the world.
You can have one if you have the money to pay for it, since they are reserved for the privileged few, very soon they are going to be free, since you will not be able to buy or sell anything without it, you will not be able to leave home without it, just like American Express. In fact, ours is becoming a cashless society, everything is transmitted via electronics or magnetic strips, I don't even carry cash anymore, my ATM card is so worn out that it has cracked in the middle, having a micro-chip implanted would be so convenient, I wouldn't have to worry about carrying a wallet with an ID and a credit card, just swipe my hand through the scanner and there it is, "welcome to the moon Mr P". Imagination is the mother of invention, read Revelation 13 for that matter, revelation, that is. I run the risk of being misinterpreted here, and that is OK since my opinion is always subject to interpretation, of course Revelation 13 is not my opinion, I hope it happens soon, and I'm thinking selfishly because of my belief.
10. We all have ears inside. YHWH has given me many gifts, one of them is to know certain things just by looking into the eyes of people, specially those whom I love. To all internal ears have been given, we all hear his calling at one point or another, we know we are being wooed, like a lover. God in his infinite love calls us out of the darkness, but we refuse to hear because we are in love with the world. He will eventually stop calling, according to his love and justice.
I can see that my mind is fragmented, but I have to use it to come to unity. This comedian I saw on TV said that he heard an ad about a bladder control awareness program, and observed that if you have a bladder control problem you are probably aware of it already; I laughed because that's the way we are, we know we have a problem and know what the thing to do is, but still seek the counsel of this world. We deceive ourselves and think is condensation.
Blessed is the man that walks not according to the counsel of the ungodly. Who is godly? They all like sheep have gone astray, there is not one good, no, not one. Jesus is godly, he asked the pharisees "who of you can convict me of sin?", that's pretty wild. If I asked the same question it would be in vain.
11. The thoughts of the blessed are not always blessed. So it happens that in this world I have been promised to have tribulation, but I am supposed to be of good cheer, be of good cheer and have good thoughts, have faith in what has been promised because Joshua is the same yesterday, today and forever.
I look back at the past and find many instances where YHWH had me covered in his grace and mercy, it is because of his great mercy that I am not consumed. Everyday I betray myself through my actions, I deny my state in the way that I think, whatever a man sows that shall he also reap, said Paul the Saint of Tarsus, cause and effect. It is therefore, crucially important that I sow what is right, what is pure and noble, praise-worthy, of good report and lovely.
Listening to Phil Keaggy makes me think of immortality, Cinemascapes is the album, he deserves to be promoted here, just because his guitar playing is jazzy and godly. I'm never going to die, I'm going to live forever, and I can only imagine what is going to be like in the other side.
The physical reality and the spiritual reality are only separated by the thin veil of my faith, Jesus said he is the door, there is no other access except through him. Those who know him take action and accomplish great things, like raising children or just being a good father or a good husband, or just being a good worker, or just being forgiven.
I only have one friend that is completely reliable, trustworthy, pure in his thoughts, his name is YHWH, his name is I am who exists, his is the name that is above all names, he loves me no matter what I do, no matter how many times I betray him.
12. Paul was right when he said that the things I want to do I don't do and the things I don't want to do those I do, what a drag. That is just the way it is while I'm in this prison of the flesh; so he said that those who are His, those who belong to Christ, have crucified the flesh with its lusts and desires.
Crucifixion of the flesh, death by torture to the flesh, not an easy thing to do because the heart is part of it. They discovered, or at least they think, ('they' are the modern scientists); that there is this part of the brain called the amigdala that senses when something is changing in the body or in my world, and is in charge of resisting change by sending these electrochemical signals to the neurons, so when all the neurons sense there is imminent change my whole being resists it. Makes sense. That is why it takes 21 days to create a habit. That is why we don't come to God in the first place, because we think that he is going to spoil our fun.
Alpha: The first letter of the alphabet, that is where we get our "a" letter, Jesus is the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end, in Him is the beginning and the end of everything. The Gospel of John describes Him as the Logos, the intelligent expression of God, YHWH taking the form of a man and expressing himself in the person of Jesus everything was created through him, by him and for him.
Evolution is a theory that has not been proven; for me, it takes more faith to believe that humans evolved than to believe that humans were created, but that is just my dogma, if you want to see it like that.
Samson was the strongest man that has ever existed, physically, he probably had the weakest mind, we are all the same, strong and weak at the same time, there is only one source of strength, true strength, the strength to stand firm under trial, the power of the living spirit of YHWH.
Deception leads to darkness,
weakness into pride,
the philistines are coming,
conquering this man.
The light has turned to shadows,
his eyes have been plucked out,
a broken heart has hurt him,
there are no tears to cry.
The grudge he holds within him,
has caused him to be blind,
the bulk of unforgiveness
tripped him in the dark.
Two pillars hold him down:
his arrogance and pride,
there is no one else to turn to,
no one hears him cry.
And then he cries for mercy,
his heart has come apart,
he knows that God can hear him,
and give him a new start.
The King now hears from heaven,
he hears this lonely man,
and sends his word to heal him,
no one can understand.
God's grace has come upon him,
the spirit filled his heart,
the shackles have been broken,
his face now bears a smile.
Sometimes I feel just like Samson, the appeal of this world is strong and sometimes I get conquered by myself, the wicked side of it, at the end of the day is always the grace of YHWH that makes me smile. So I wrote that little poem one day as it flowed through my brain.
Thinking indeed is a privilege, a misused one.
Beta: Time is a physical property of the universe, nothings works without time. Time is one of those things that require faith to believe but I often take for granted; I have, unconsciously, tried to ignore time because in my mind it is a long line that ends somewhere in the future, sometime, or somewhere on that line there is a point with a number attached to it, my constant moving present will end at that point in time, a time already appointed by YHWH; I contemplate the essence of this life in a constant moving present moment, this very moment becomes the past in the next one, which is the future, it is a thin line between past and future, the present is a very thin line, a moment thick.
The present is all that is really real, but so fleeting, the rest of the time is either in the past or in the future, my existence keeps on moving in this sliding ruler. Solomon was right, all is vanity, what really matters, and the bottom line is to fear YHWH and keep his word, without that, everything is vain.
There is a lot involved in this, the fear here is not only the fear of stepping outside of obedience but fear of being separated from God, it is good to know that there is nothing that can separate me from the love of God which is in Christ.
YHWH moved in the spirit of men to inspire them to write what he thinks, my pastor was just talking about this on Sunday, and so there would be no space in the earth to contain all the books about the words of Joshua while he was here, that is what the book of John says. For some reason I like the sound of Joshua better than the sound of Jesus, even though they mean the same thing: YHWH is salvation, and YHWH is I am who exists, so YHWH and Joshua are the same person, salvation exists, always, forever.
I have friends that I have called several times and I haven't received a call back yet, I'm not thinking this because my friend is not a good friend but because we all think about our priorities, the world that we have created by our decisions attacks us and we loose perspective of what matters most, which in all cases is relationships, I know I will get a call back because I do exactly the same, a friend calls and I get too busy to call back.
I have called on YHWH and he has responded within half an hour, actually his reply is always immediate but it took half of an hour in my time, in my reality, to see his answer. He is such a good friend, he is the best friend that I have, he loves me no matter what, I don't think that I am such a good friend to him though, sometimes I completely and irreverently ignore him, just like my friends do, not intentionally, we just get too busy in our own little worlds, we think the universe revolves around us, ha, not really, but yes really. Of course he cannot be treated like he was some kind of celestial dude friend of mine, he is awesome in power and holy beyond understanding, majestic in love and just as a righteous judge.
My present rapidly dissipates into the future, with no possible control, so it seems. Going back to cause and effect, it is by my thoughts that I can somehow define the future moment, it is just a chain of events that are based on the previous events, those events are based on previous thoughts, is just like doing maintenance on a car, you change the oil, give it a tune up, etc, doing so causes the the machine to last longer, it will eventually require the replacement of parts, and then eventually, will cease to function all together. You got to gas it to keep it running.
Ignoring the maintenance requirements will always cause the machine to deteriorate faster. Life in this cosmos is always subjected to the laws of nature, entropy is always in operation, just like gravity and time, the system is like a great clock winding down, everything goes from order to disorder unless some input is given to it, just like the car, all up to a point. The apparent mystery is when things happen that I could not have determined by my actions or my thoughts, then I often reason that they are part of the plan to bring forth my righteousness as the noon day, if I could only see that more often.
In the real reality, the spiritual reality, is the other way around, I'm going from disorder into order, the work of YHWH it is. Such is the life of the blessed. Chaos into order, darkness into light, ignorance and foolishness into knowledge and wisdom, defeat into victory, turmoil into peace, denial into acceptance, death unto life.
Science has calculated that the earth is about 4.5 billion years old, that is like driving from NY to San Fransisco and every millimeter between them is equivalent to one year in a time line. That is a lot of time.
In the 1700's, James Usher determined that the earth and time began about 4000 BC, he did this by calculating how long the time genealogies in the bible lasted. There was a good reason why he went to the bible to find out, it was the best historical document and the best source of information. Just like Cristobal Colon commonly known as Christopher Columbus knew the earth was round, because it says so in Isaiah 40. Check it out.
Scientists have discovered that time can be slowed down or sped up, for example they came up with this device that flashes a series of numbers at a certain speed, and then attached it to the wrist of a volunteer that was allowed to free fall from a height of 12 stories, during the fall the guy was supposed to look at the screen of this machine and see if he could read the numbers, normally he couldn't read them because they were flashing on the screen so fast that he could only see a solid blur of light; and so it happened that after the fall, he landed on his back on a net, he said he could read the numbers when he was falling.
This all relates to the fact that when people are in danger, everything slows way down, almost like slow motion, in the book of Joshua, chapter 10, Joshua, Moses' successor, is called to help the men of Gibeon since the Amorites where going to attack them, so Joshua travels all night to get there and then fights the Amorites all day, it was a hard thing because he knew he had the victory and that no Amorite would survive but he was running out of time, Joshua needed more time to win so he asks YHWH to hold the sun and the moon in their places, and so it happened that the sun did not move for a whole day. It says there that a day like that had never happened and will not happen again. That day Joshua's present was extended, the earth stopped turning for one day, time stopped running.
There is a guy in the UK, his name is Clyde, that does not remember anything after a few seconds, so every time his daughter enters the room he acts like it is the first time he sees her after years, if she asks him a question, he answers but in the process he forgets what the question was. The little dog I take care of, Rosco, acts the same way, I can leave the room and come back in a few seconds and he will say hi to me again. Of course I wasn't trying to compare Clyde to Rosco, even though I just did.
An experiment performed by some time-studying scientists, showed how time perception is altered by the use of drugs. They had 3 rats that were trained to push a lever exactly after 12 seconds of being placed in a cage, after pressing the lever they would get rewarded by getting a tasty rat treat. If the rats would press the lever too late or too soon they wouldn't get a rat treat, it had to be at exactly 12 seconds or nothing would come out.
So they got two of the rats loaded, one with marijuana and the other with cocaine, the third rat was clean and sober, so they placed the rats in their cages and the rat that was clean and sober got her treat after exactly 12 seconds, the one on pot did not get a treat because she took too long to press the lever, the one on coke pressed the lever too soon.
There is this fish, called grunion that comes to Newport beach every year at the same time, I guess they come to the California coast for that matter, they get there within a window of 2 hours, hundreds of thousands of grunions mate on the beach in 2 hours every year at the same time, they are never late, they don't use a map, a "gee pee s" or anything to know where they should go.
Back in the 70's a french man called LeCief, lived in a cave for 2 months with no watch or any references to time, he measured all his activities and called people on the outside when he ate, slept or went to the bathroom. Even without a time measuring device or reference, his body knew exactly when to rest and do what he needed to do, he had an internal clock, just like everything else in the universe.
After all this years they have discovered (or so they think, -they being the scientists that are studying this subject) that in the middle of our brains we have about twenty thousand cells that form what appears to be the internal human clock, it regulates the time for us; but time is a lot more than a perception; it has been proven that time can be slowed down or sped up. Time's speed is apparently linked to the speed of light, which is three hundred thousand kilometers per second, or one hundred and eighty six thousand three hundred miles per second, is fast, like a moment of time in my world.
Gamma: Phos means light. While I was in the shower I was just thinking of a place without time, there is no night there, since there are no days there is no night, kind of like in Alaska where sometimes the sun does not go down behind the earth, I should say that sometimes the earth spins with the arctic circle facing the sun, the place I was thinking about is a place with no darkness, no shadows, there is no sun, only the Son lighting everything up with his phos, the creator of light is the light of everything, nothing is hidden to him even now. His name is I am who exists, YHWH is salvation, the phos of the world, the creator of the universe, the one that said 'let there be a big bang' and there was a big bang.
Phos is a peculiar form of energy in this physical world, studies have demonstrated that light can behave as a particle and as a wave, a particle, a photon, can bounce off the wall, actually photons bounce off everything I see, what my eyes can see is the different colors of the spectrum of light. I'm not going to think and talk about the eye and the optic nerve, and the way it interacts with the brain, is just amazing, no amount of evolution could have created something like the eye, but light can also behave like a wave, a different vibration in the wave of light gives me infra red, gamma radiation, x-rays, etc.
Gamma rays are basically created from the interaction of high energy photons and is considered to be an electro-magnetic form of radiation, or light emissions, waves of a specific frequency produced from sub-atomic particle interaction. The trip about this is that gamma rays penetrate flesh very easily, they say that gamma rays possess tissue penetrating properties, therefore they are used in medicine to do CT scans, this works by injecting a gamma-emitting radio-isotope like technetium-99 into the body and then take a picture of the light that is being emitted by the technetium-99.
I witnessed this procedure being performed in my own body so I know this is true, I saw the pictures, very trick. Gamma radiation is also used to sterilize foods like meat, and to kill bacteria in medical equipment, I know because I used to work in the biotechnology field and they used gamma-radiated bags to fill different compounds. Gamma rays can even cause cancer when DNA is affected by them.
Jesus said I am the light of the world, you can draw your own analogies here, or wait until I'm done thinking, next is salt.
But first, this piece of news: Friday the twenty second day of the month of June of the year of our Lord two thousand and seven, UK. Aurigny Airlines captain Ray Bowyer, 50, say he spotted a mile long UFO while flying over the channel islands in England, 2 of his passengers confirmed the report, later another object was seen by the same people while the plane approached Guernsay, they affirmed the object was a smaller object than the one they saw before, but it could have been the same one just farther. Another pilot with the Blue Islands airline, has confirmed the report as well as a pilot flying close to Alderney also saw the cigar shaped object in the sky.
I would like to know what are these lights they saw flying, in Christian circles it is said that this is demonic activity, like I said before, I have also seen this kind of lights in the sky over Guadalajara, Mexico, and they will certainly freaked me out when I saw it, is one of those things that I will never forget. I would like to ask the pilot what kind of weed was he smoking before he saw the lights, but he probably would say he didn't smoke anything, and even swear that he was sober, which makes me wonder.
Scientists have calculated a decrease in the speed of light over the past few decades, it just makes sense, everything is slowing down, just like the big spring of time loosing tension.
Delta: Sodium chloride, vulgo salt, is a peculiar substance, sodium chloride is so abundant in the earth that is used for all kinds of things. There are seventy eight million metric tons of salt in every cubic kilometer of sea water. The chemical formula is NaCl, which is made of Natrium and Chlororum, Sodium and Chlorine. The real trip about salt is that is made of two substances with very different characteristics than salt itself.
Sodium by itself is a poison, it is also explosive when exposed to water; chlorine is by itself corrosive. Sodium chloride has a neutral PH and its structure is crystalline when viewed under a microscope, actually a sodium chloride crystal is a perfect cube and is completely clear, make sure you make yourself a mental picture of this.
It is very interesting to me that Jesus chose the term 'salt of the earth' to describe us....
The implications are surprising, did I mention salt is formed of perfect cubic crystals? What about the idea that this perfect cubic crystal refracts light into the many frequencies of the spectrum, an awesome array of beauty and power. If I am the light of the world, as Joshua said, and the salt of the earth, also, as he said; can I reflect the beauty of the light of YHWH through the perfect cubic crystals of the salt of my existence? I think is possible, is not only possible but designed that way. No reflection will occur if the salt has lost its flavor, the loss of flavor turns into corrosiveness and turbidity and then the salt becomes only good but to step on it. No flavor no reflection.
How long does it take for the salt to loose its flavor? I don't think time itself will cause the salt to loose its flavor, I think it is more the interaction of the salt with other things, but I could be wrong. There are only two things the salt will turn into when decomposed: bitterness and corrosiveness, I don't like either one of them and I don't think that anybody likes them either, or neither, whatever. The fact is that salt can reflect light because is a cubic crystal in structure, just like the new Jerusalem. Am I the only one thinking about this? Provocative it is, more in the sense of causing awe, that Jesus chose the most powerful and common elements of the earth to describe me, he thinks I'm special, so special that he died in my place; no amount of gratitude will ever be enough to compensate for that. I want to shine.
Epsilon:
Breath on me, restore my soul
make me live, make me whole
touch my heart, renew my mind
hold my hand and lift me up.
Fill my life, speak your words
hold me tight and heal my bones.
Take me where your presence is
give me faith so you'd be pleased.
Rain on me, your awesome grace
free me Lord and brake these chains.
The God-man spat on the ground, mixing heaven and earth, anointing the eyes of the blind breaking his religion, and causing him to see. The works of God displayed on man that day, the power of that moment is evident today.
You came down from heaven
and split time in two
men have seen your glory
and filled their minds with you.
You came down from heaven
and took my sin upon you
we now seek your glory
and turn our hearts to you.
You reached down from heaven,
and gave me all of you
I have felt your mercy
I now live for you.
Now we feel your presence
and fill our hearts with praise
we now seek your holiness
make us more like you.
In the practice of the instructions given, power is found to overcome; in the retraction of the thoughts and the intents of the heart the freedom of the will is found.
August has always been the hottest month in southern California, at least for me; is hot, sticky, miserable weather for this body of mine, but I am grateful for it.....and September is coming, so more thanks are to be given for the lack of AC.
Gratitude is the only way by which I can draw near to God, and so I am grateful, very very grateful.
This morning, while I was looking at a hummingbird, I felt the presence of God in me and beside me, it was so intense that I broke down weeping in thanksgiving. How can I give thanks for what I don't have? For loosing everything? It's a purifying experience, and so freeing. It draws me close to him.
Zeta: Greek letters do not have the same order as my alphabet. Greek is a fascinating language, one word can express so much, Greek words usually have deep meanings, significance not seen in our language, biblical Greek just makes it so out of reality but more real than regular Greek. I know I'm not making any sense but I know what I mean.
I have this hunger for knowledge that is almost physical, knowledge puffs up though, so I have to be careful not to become arrogant and prideful, even then my knowledge is so limited. I want knowledge of the holy, knowledge of the supernatural, and I find myself tied down to the physical reality and to the pain of my existence, and there is joy in it.
I don't want time to run, and it keeps on running, and the number of my days keeps on getting bigger, or smaller, depending on what perspective I'm using. If I have 70 years to live, that is 25,550 days, and so if I am 48 years old, I have only 8,030 days left or about 268 months or about 1,147 weeks, I am sure I'm not living for the weekend so I have to make these eight thousand days something worth living for.
192,720 hours left to breath, if I take a breath every 2 seconds then I can only breath about five million seven hundred and eighty one thousand six hundred breaths, it sounds like a lot of air going in and out of my body, how much air is contained in a single breath? I can probably calculate it but I'm getting overwhelmed thinking about it.
Another way to look at it is to calculate how many times will my heart beat in the next 22 years, so if my heart beats a at rate of 90 beats per minute, that is 90 times 1,440 minutes in a day equals 129,600 beats per day, multiplied by 8,030 days equals about 1.04 billion beats per 22 years, that is a lot of beating of my heart, of which I have no control over, it can stop in the next sixty seconds for all I know.
Mind boggling thoughts these are. I'm tired but grateful that I have a beating heart, no heart-no thoughts, no thoughts-no faith, a real tragedy to not have a beating heart.
Eta: Time is so fleeting, here I am after 3 months of being away, it seems that it was yesterday when I last visited with my thoughts. I haven't stopped thinking though, I saw one of those moving stars yesterday. I wonder what those are.
So think yourself into existence, and in all your thinking seek the knowledge of the Holy; we are made in His image but not all people believe it. Have you ever wondered why is it that some people believe and others don't?
If Christianity is a myth, a story someone made up, if Jesus is not real, if God doesn't exist; then we are, of all people, the most miserable and we will be disappointed when we die. But if it is all real, and there is a heaven and a hell, and eternal life, and eternal death; then we are fortunate, no, blessed, in reality fortune doesn't exist, I should say we are blessed for believing this stuff.
How can you live your life without acknowledging that God is real? Have you ever thought about why we write the date the way we do? Jesus Christ is the reason we are aware of what day is today; all the world acknowledges Him when they write the date on a piece of paper, or a check or a letter. All the news agencies do the same.
Like I said in my little poem above, Jesus split time in two; and He has chosen some to be in the kingdom, that is what the bible says; Jesus said He is the only way to heaven, either He was a liar, or crazy, or He is right; I think He is right.
Have a nice day.
